A New Understanding of Integration
The simplicity and clarity of giving all to God/Christ.
Note: This is an expanded version of a piece I first published ~3 months ago on my other newsletter. It became the most-liked piece I’ve published there and feels quite central to my recent/ongoing process, so I wanted to also publish it here for the larger community.
Dear Family,
Some fascinating stuff has been happening in my process.
I’m gonna share three recent pieces of writing that illustrate these developments—illuminating an evolution in my understanding of integration.
I.
I seem to be experiencing a deep shift.
The simplest way to put it is…
Shifting from trying to ‘integrate all parts’ and ‘be all of me’….
To giving it all to the Fires of Christ’s Love — offering it all to the Inferno of God — to the Waters of Life, without being attached to any of it needing to stick around or integrate, and trusting that God’s Fire knows much better than me what to dissolve, what to integrate, what to transfigure, and so forth. God knows better than me what is relevant and important for my vessel in this lifetime.
There is a deepening realization that I Fully Trust the North Star of Suprapersonal Christic Love. Christ is my North Star and I can surrender my process to Him. And therefore the most direct and efficient way to work with all parts and energies is simply to give them to the Christ Fire of God’s Love.
🙏🏼❤️🔥🌳✝️🌳❤️🔥🙏🏼
This approach may also be valuable for others and need not center on Christ. Whatever Suprapersonal Face of Divinity or Emanation of Divine Love you most deeply resonate with, could be worked with in this way. Or simply Nameless Supreme Source.
Blessings.
🙏🏼❤️🔥
II.
I shared that first piece ~3 months ago, then a few days later shared this one on IG and FB:
Truly an incredible day. I received a transcendent healing experience.
It began with an intentional cannabis ceremony barefoot in nature, then I walked to Sauna Village — an amazing German healing center.
Once there I began praying intently while in the sauna and cold shower, then when I entered the ice bath I slipped into a samadhi-like experience — reminiscent of bufo. I was merging with the Christ Light.
I then began spontaneously hearing/repeating a mantra: “Deepest dungeons receiving Christ Water.” I repeated this many times and witnessed the Waters of Life pouring into the most exiled deserts and dungeons within the (collective) psyche. I saw deserts blossoming into gardens and witnessed a long-exiled prisoner in chains freed from bondage after aeons of torment.
I nearly passed out due to the Total Immersion in Light, then got out, sat in sublime meditation for a while, then went outside where I did naked yoga in the sun while witnessing a pond and small waterfall. I meditated further, and spontaneous prayers and mantras continued to come over the next hours as I intuitively offered my Total Body to the Heavenly and Gaian Christ.
Various other benedictions and mystical experiences occurred as I surrendered to another round of sauna and ice bath. I spent a long time prayerfully sending Christ’s Love to many specific family members, friends, and to all beings in all worlds.
I felt ancient karmic coagulations unraveling and pouring down from my root, spiraling into the Gaian Body to be metabolized and recycled.
It felt like one of the deepest personal and collective healing experiences that has ever occurred through/as my vessel and field. I am tremendously thankful.
The Divine Suprapersonal Omnipresence of Christ is with you always as your own Heart and immediate field of awareness. Be still and relinquish all knowledge in order to Rest As Pure Knowledge.
Offer all to the Divine Blazing Presence Of Now and you will be shown your True Home and True Self as Love. ❤️🔥
III.
Then a day later, I published these words as part of a much longer piece for my main newsletter:
God-Surrender massively simplifies things:
Essentially, you just give everything to God. Give everything to the Omnipresent Christ Fire. Give everything to Divine Presence.
If the words ‘God’ or ‘Christ’ don’t resonate with you, you can simply conceive of this as giving everything to the Ever-Present Fire of Pure Presence.
Literally, any thought or energy or experience or emotion or idea or decision or seeming contradiction, can be surrendered to the Immediate Field of Christ-Fire.
This is similar to what David Hawkins described in his book, Letting Go. The simplicity and elegance of this technique are dawning on me anew.
What you can begin to realize is that your life is taking place in/as an Infinite Presence of Loving Intelligence.
This Intelligence—what I call Christ-Fire and many other names—knows much better than you what to integrate, what to dissolve, what to balance out, and generally how to best align and harmonize your being in the way that is most karmically resonant and auspicious for you in your current incarnation.
So, you can just give everything to the Field itself.
What this actually looks like in practice is essentially attuning yourself to the Silent Field of Pure Presence that is always with you—within and beyond all words, thoughts, or phenomena.
Through experimentation you discover the highly personal ‘openings’ or access points that reliably work for you, and you then regularly meditatively-prayerfully attune yourself to the Silent Presence.
And you simply offer everything to this Silent Presence.
You access its Inmost Flame as purely as you can in any given moment, and you devotionally offer your Total Body to this Presence.
You let anything and everything slip away into its Fire.
Singing prayers to devotional Christic music can also be an immensely powerful way to give it all to God.
Deep ongoing prayer/intention/devotion are key.
It’s okay if you don’t feel ready to engage in this level of devotional surrender. You can begin by experimenting with simply surrendering a few thoughts or sensations—to see how it feels.
Yet in my experience, the more you become willing to consecrate your Total Self as a devotional offering to the Beloved, you will be brought into an Integrative Furnace of Love. The Omnipresence will simply begin washing away what is not auspicious, and will re-harmonize and align your being on deep levels—spontaneously and automagically.
You don’t need to ‘figure out’ your precise balance of Christianity VS New-Age-ism, or any other sort of balance of various wisdom-streams.
God already knows what your perfect balance is.
So you can simply give it all to God, you see.
Give it all to whichever suprapersonal Face of Divine Presence-Love-Grace most deeply resonates with you. They’re all emanations of the same Light of the Forever Beyond.
Give it all to Christ. Christ knows what to do with it.
A key part of this realization recently for me has been the dawning understanding that I don’t need to “integrate all parts” in the sense that I don’t need every aspect of Creation to somehow become infused in the way I express as a being in this lifetime.
The Field—our Deepest Self—has already integrated all parts. The Christ-Fire has already integrated all parts. It is already perfect wholeness, perfect knowledge, perfect intelligence.
In that sense, we’ve already integrated everything. When we surrender to That which is already perfect wholeness, it naturally knows what is most auspicious for us to embody and express in our current incarnation. It naturally washes away that which we need not embody or express (any longer) in this lifetime.
For years I had been maintaining a (subtle) attachment to an elaborate project of “integrating all parts,” not wanting to reject any aspect of my being. In a sense this was an honorable and important stage, yet I’m now seeing that a more expedient, simple, and surrendered pathway of integration is available: Ceasing to attach to anything or try to ‘figure it out’ and instead simply pouring all of it into the Fire of Presence.
The Fire Knows. The Ocean Knows. I can just give it all to That. I can allow That to slurp me up entirely, and I can fully trust what emerges on the other side.
On a deep level I have already known this—having gone through many death-and-rebirth processes—yet I suppose it’s now sinking in on a deeper level.
All of the inner drama of my pet self-work projects can simply be dumped into the Roaring Blaze.
The Roaring Blaze is all that is needed.
It is hilarious how this maximally simplifies everything down to one single-pointed movement.
Just Give It All To The Fire, Jordan.
You are increasingly ready to Give It All To The Fire.
Anything and everything that arises—all samskaric or karmic residues—can simply be offered to the Blaze.
Hah!
IV.
I’ll also share a few more words written in recent days of October 2025, which provide a few more insights on this continuing process and how it relates to the ‘inner dragon’:
Final note about the Dragon energy: Those times in the past when I’ve been ‘hijacked’ or almost co-opted by the (dark) Dragon energy and stated those things to my wife (needing absolute freedom, etc) have created challenges and wounds in our relationship at times. I feel we’re in a good, cozy space now but I presently feel I don’t want that energy to ‘take me over’ or rule our relationship.
At the same time I do honor the power and raw liberating creative-destructive force that the Dragon brings. Yet his demands tend to be absolute in nature and not coming from a space of mutual understanding, mutually-fulfilling compromise, co-creation, and honoring my wife’s needs, which is the heart-space I want to come from in our marriage. So I am presently in a space of feeling like I need to find ways to honor the Dragon ongoingly through ‘intentional wildness’ of various kinds so that he doesn’t get bottled up and then erupt out volcano-like or ‘take me over.’ 🌋🐉
I am offering the inner Dragon up to the All-Transcending-All-Including Christ Fire and trusting that that Fire knows best what to do with him. I don’t get the sense he will cease to be part of me but I have reached greater single-pointed clarity about who is my Truth North Star in my life, and this is helpful. My North Star is what I call Jesus Christ — a mysterious avataric Presence of Divinity who I do not feel a need to dogmatize or hold beliefs about...
Christ simply seems to be the karmically well-fitted ‘Face of Divine Fire’ that most perfectly ‘clicks’ in my being. That Totalizing Inferno of Grace has repeatedly punctured my Heart, bringing forth weeping tears of pure Love and I willingly surrendered myself, my life, and my allegiance to That—and do so at deepening levels ongoingly—sensing the Christ Fire Of Pure Love as my own Truest Nature. This is presently where I find myself. Fascinating journeys we live in/as this bottomless Nowness-Wholeness-Vastness. : ) 🧬❤️🔥
The Dragon is called to become a THUG — Truly Humbled Under God : ) 🐉🌈 This is not a diminishment or subservience but a willful Surrender... that Totalizing Love-Grace-Inferno, when palpably experienced, reveals Itself as Home/Self... my sensing is that all entities eventually recognize It and willfully reunite with It in whatever way is native to them, melting into the Center of the Sun that is the Light of our Being... 🌞
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To be very clear, none of this is intended as a dogma or a belief system. This is an experiential description of a deeply mysterious mythopoetic inner journey. No two beings will have precisely the same North Star, I sense; each one is called to find the expression of Totalizing Divinity that resonates most purely in their Heart. “Same water, different wells.”: In my experience we are all drawing from the same Ocean and we are that Ocean. Yet the Ocean holds within itself an Infinite Imagination And Creative Capacity that allows it to speak to each of us in the Living Language that most purely resonates with our Native Soul Essence. 🙏🏼❤️🔥
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If ‘offering all parts to the Fire’ sounds too intense, another expression / similar approach is bringing the Waters of Life or the Great Mother’s Love into the body, washing all parts in that Water/Love, holding/blessing all (wounded) inner children in that Water/Love, allowing Divine Water/Love to discerningly cleanse whatever is ready to be washed away and to heal/transfigure whatever is calling for healing or transfiguration... meeting all parts with Love, feeling all unfelt feelings that want to be felt, holding all painful parts in Love as if you were the Great Mother holding Her children lovingly to her breast...
A key, I feel, is to single-pointedly place your faith/trust in Transcendent Love in whatever (formless) form deeply resonates with you, and let that Love guide the healing/alchemization/sanctification process ... I don’t see this as apart from awakening but a natural expression of it ... awakening for me feels like opening to our ever-present True Loving Nature and giving our life/being/body over to that Love.
It may show up differently for others... as always, receive whatever feels resonant/useful, let go of what doesn’t, add what is uniquely your own... your Heart holds the wisest answers for you. ❤️
Peace, friend.
I hope this is valuable for you.
I’ve been creating more videos/words related to devotional surrender/sanctification and I will likely be sharing more of those in the coming weeks/months.
As I revisit everything I wrote above, one of the main things that comes up now is a feeling that this can ~all be a gentle and loving process. “Giving it all to the Roaring Blaze” can sound intense, yet the process could also be likened to allowing all inner children and all aspects of your total inner ecology to melt honey-like into the Love they truly are, returning to their original luminous template. Some aspects may dissolve entirely in this process, whereas others will be sanctified and more deeply harmonized with God-Wholeness-Self.
Christ Bless you and yours all the days of your lives.
Love,
Jordan
If you feel called to dive deeper, consider Christ Healing and Brothers of the Ever Innocent Heart.
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