Another great essay! Man!... You're forcing me to think! My son is going through exactly the same experience you just described and started to return to his Catholic roots and reading anything he can about the Catholic faith. Of course, he would like his parents to join in.

I, too, had some mystical experiences, but I am also concerned about the Christian egregore (although

I didn't call it like that). When it comes to Christianity, my natural attraction is towards "contemplative Christianity" where the emphasis is on the "feelings of/in the heart" as opposed to theology, rules and rituals. I don't know if you're familiar with the work (and videos) of father Richard Rohr (a Franciscan friar). He has a way, it seems, to recognize the egregore and to address it in a way that makes sense. Ultimately, there has to be a primal, original, universal, ontological, spiritual reality that is beyond cultural differences and historical time lines. I think all religions try to touch that ultimate reality.

In the end, it is a mystery. Maybe we should just rejoice in "this mystery" and be satisfied with knowing that we will never know. The more I peel the onion, the more mysterious it seems to get.

Keep peeling the onion Jordan!


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Very interesting to read this Jordan. I feel myself walking the same edge the last year and prompted to write a whole damn essay by you.

I found it very striking how powerful that pull came on for you. I had no inkling that you had a church or catholic background. It does seem that the christian code can be waiting under the surface and come back online with force. The most promising form of this being a relation to christ consciousness primarily and then an interrogation of the church and christian lineage. Unfortunately, without direct experience people may feel the call and only seem to find their way back into the hollowed out husk you describe. I think elements of the experience we have had are likely to happen more and more and a lot of people will fell called back to faith. Consequently, they'll be called into direct confrontation with their own religious trauma and what was limiting in the first place. Hopefully there is a creative urge borne out of this yearning and not a mere reversion to what was.

I see a really rich space emerging for a 'christianity-beyond-itself' in dialogue with other very distinct ways of knowing. This has been a very live dialogue for me and one I'm hoping to continue in the 'wrestling with christianity' series of SenseSpace.

PS. Fascinated to hear about your christian shaman friends.

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