“It is better to be a warrior in a garden than a gardener in a war.”
— Chinese Proverb
“What matters most is how you walk through the fire.”
— Charles Bukowski
“You can walk through the fire complaining along the way, or you can walk through the fire… with grace, dignity, and discipline.”
This is not a drill.
You have taken a body on Earth at a critical moment.
This is a precious incarnation during a prophesied time of great unveiling, collapse, revolution, purging, illumination.
Who are you *being* right now? How are you showing up?
Everything hinges on this.
The world is saved or the world is trashed by you, in each moment.
How are you holding this precious life?
Are you holding it like an innocent newborn baby, or like a throwaway cum-sock?
How are you honoring yourself, God, the Earth, all beings, every rock, every tree, all expressions of Divinity, moment to moment?
Who are you *being*?
Be honest.
It is Time to Do Difficult Things
We live in a time of immense transition.
It is time to become warriors of the heart.
Time to initiate ourselves.
Time to train.
Time to do difficult things.
The initiations are coming for us one way or another.
It is wiser to undertake them ourselves, so Life doesn’t have to smack us quite as hard when the storm comes.
As I said in my recent essay on ‘God-Surrendered Leadership’:
We live in a time of immense transition, in which there is a tremendous amount of suffering and enslavement. The fates of trillions of innocent beings hang in the balance.
And make no mistake: There are more storms on the horizon.
I’m not big on doom-saying; this simply seems like a sober appraisal of life on Earth, especially at this juncture.
Unfortunately, the Covid-1984 Saga was likely far from the end of our totalitarian [and economic-systemic collapse / meta-crisis] concerns in this century; probably it was more like the prelude. So…
Eyes wide open.
(Without falling into a the trap of over-immersing in dark rabbit holes).
I recommend unplugging from the big-bank-big-government-big-corporation-big-food-big-media-big-pharma-big-education-big-rat-race matrix in as many ways as possible [that feel heart-aligned] over the coming times. Babylon is falling, but it won’t go quietly. The attempts to reinstate control will become more overt, more desperate.
Adding on to that…
I also recommend to train.
Initiate yourself.
The process of ‘unplugging from the matrix’ of default civilization, is in itself a massive (lifelong) initiation.
Here are 32 other ways we can initiate ourselves that feel powerful to me:
32 Ways to Initiate Ourselves in 2023 and Beyond
Become a parent, show up for your child(ren) every day, and truly open your heart to that experience. Raise your kids with love and wisdom, to the best of your abilities.
Commit to a long-term marriage/partnership, show up for it every day, and truly open your heart to that experience.
Physically train your body. Put yourself through discomfort. Do difficult things. Intense workouts. Manual labor.
Speak your truth. Especially when it’s uncomfortable. Be direct with people. Tell them what you really feel. Share your truth publicly.
Be courageous. Put yourself in unfamiliar or triggering situations. Force yourself to adapt and navigate new territory. Travel. Dance. Speak in public.
Take opportunities to step into leadership roles, or create such opportunities for yourself.
Practice holding space for others, in 1:1 and group contexts—i.e. through coaching, mentoring, healing, counseling, facilitating, and/or simply being a space of deep listening, direct compassionate communication, and unconditional love for those around you.
Undertake entheogenic initiations, in wisely-held spaces.
Stop doing shit you hate. This might mean quitting your job or ending certain relationships.
Discipline yourself. Become more structured, especially if you’re in a pattern of free-flowing floaty-ness. Exercise the muscle of doing what needs to be done, even if it feels uncomfortable.
Heal your addictions. All addictions are energy leaks. Master yourself. Undertake fasts from food, booze, drugs, social media, gambling, porn, etc. Do the deep ongoing inner work to feel, love, heal, and release all the wounds and emotions that lie at the root of your addictions.
Stop watching porn altogether. 99.9+% of it is dark magick.
Care deeply. Show up for your own damn life.
Burn away toxic mentalities: Cynicism, subtle victim mentalities, and juvenile nihilism, apathy, narcissism, and rebelliousness.
Open your heart. Cry. Feel everything. Be intimate with all of existence. Release all subtle (“spiritual” or “non-dual”) ways of ‘keeping life at arm’s length.’
Become an adult. Stop being a man-child who does nothing but smoke weed, play video games, and scroll social media. Adult men and women are rare in 2022. Be one.
Execute missions. Get shit done. Set yourself goals that you’re passionate about and accomplish them.
Take radical responsibility for everything that shows up in your field of awareness, as if you deliberately put it there. Whatever shows up in the mirror, is what you need to look at.
Serve. Help. Show up for the people around you. Show up for Earth.
Do the opposite of whatever your normal pattern is. If you’re deep in psychedelics, stop for a long while and do something physical and difficult. If you’re a workaholic, do a meditation retreat. Etc.
Walk through the fire with grace and dignity. Life is going to challenge you. You can be dragged along kicking and screaming and complaining, or you can learn to walk upright, embracing the tests like a warrior.
Find mentors. Guides. Teachers. Leaders. Friends who inspire, activate, and challenge you. Initiating yourself can go a long ways, but ultimately, you’re not going to walk this path alone. The right people are indispensable.
Do the right thing in every situation, to the best of your abilities. Especially when no one is watching. Respect yourself. Your heart knows what honor is.
Raise your standards for yourself every day. What are you being? How can you show up more fully? How can you be in deeper integrity with your heart and soul? How can you ‘walk the talk’ more completely? How can you align thought, word, and deed more wholly? What are things you can clean up, that you can see in yourself, even if no one else can see them?
Own mistakes immediately. Without self-condemnation. Then commit to being more skillful moving forward. Make skillfulness an endless practice, in communication and all other areas.
Relentlessly investigate your own bullshit and blindspots. Ask others where you are full of shit. Ask what you’re not seeing in yourself. Constantly observe yourself with unflinching honesty. Admit that you are full of shit, and that it is a lifelong practice to become less full of shit.
Integrate your shadow. Integrate your inner demon-monster. Integrate all parts of you. Integrate all your Hogwarts’ houses, not just your Gryffindor. Integrate all parts and let all parts be purified, healed, and harmonized in the fires of the open heart.
Humble yourself. Realize you’re not special. Burn away arrogance. Fall to your knees in prayer and worship. Praise God as the true source of all your boons, gifts, and treasures. Admit that you are not in control of life, and that you need God’s help to heal, self-purify, and serve.
Create from the heart. Birth new things into the world. Put them out there. Tell people about them. Unveil, reveal, show yourself. Give us your heartistry.
Forgive everyone in your life. Love all beings. Practice universal compassion, especially when that means telling people the truths they won’t want to hear.
Become what you are. Live the truth of what you are. Find out who you are, and live that totally, all the way.
Surrender to God. Empty yourself and let yourself become a vessel for the Creator. Give your life over to God.
Listen up.
These are some ways you and I can initiate ourselves.
Doubtlessly there are innumerable other ways.
Note that there is vastly more depth here than what I have expressed. Entire books could be written about each of these initiatory possibilities.
I’ve been deeply engaged in most of these trajectories for years, and honestly, this work is no joke. It goes far deeper than I ever imagined.
Don’t make the mistake of simply reading this article and feeling like you ‘got it.’
If you do that, you didn’t get it.
The point is to implement it, embody it, physically train and immerse yourself in it.
Stop simply consuming information.
Start *living* it.
*Walk the talk*.
Actually initiate yourself, whatever that means to *you*.
Let me say this one more time, for myself and whoever else needs it:
This is not a drill.
You have taken a body on Earth at a critical moment.
This is a precious incarnation during a prophesied time of great unveiling, collapse, revolution, purging, illumination.
Who are you *being* right now? How are you showing up?
Everything hinges on this.
The world is saved or the world is trashed by you, in each moment.
How are you holding this precious life?
Are you holding it like an innocent newborn baby, or like a throwaway cum-sock?
How are you honoring yourself, God, the Earth, all beings, every rock, every tree, all expressions of Divinity, moment to moment?
Who are you *being*?
Be honest.
Serious Play
One more thing…
Through all this intense stuff…
Don’t forget how to laugh and play and be silly.
Don’t forget that this life is light as a feather.
Paradoxically, everything matters and nothing matters.
Everything is monumentally heavy and absolutely weightless.
If you feel yourself fixating one of these poles, explore the other one for a while.
A true leader finds the balance, the middle way, holding both.
We are dancing through a weightless dream.
And we are on a dead-serious mission to liberate vast realms of Creation.
We are playfully skipping along through an infinite rainbow-apparition made of indestructible, inviolable light.
And we are on a grave quest, plunging into realms of tremendous darkness and density to break shackles, melt cages, dissolve suffering, and defend all that is good and true and beautiful and innocent.
Hold both, leader.
Play seriously.
In Sum: The Antidote
As I wrote in ‘God-Surrendered Leadership’:
The most powerful antidote for the machinations of the Old Earth ‘matrix control system’ is…
God-surrendered leaders.
Universally loving, fiercely authentic, New-Earth-attuned, lion-hearted, God-surrendered leaders.
If a sufficient number of us activate on this level, a New Earth becomes inevitable.
What I have shared in this post…
Is an outline of how to initiate and activate on this level.
Note that God-Surrendered Leadership will look wildly different for each being.
This can look like anything.
It’s not about imitating Jesus or Gandhi or Anandamayi Ma or anyone else.
It’s about plugging directly into your own source, and allowing that source to sing a song through you—the song that only you can sing.
So…
If you feel the call to be a true leader…
And since you’re still reading, you probably do…
Get going, family. : )
What is one thing you can commit to doing *today* to step into a new phase of self-initiation?
Do it.
Amen.
Namaste.
God is good.
Love and Peace,
J
Ways to Work With Me: Initiations & Offerings in 2023
I intend to initiate leaders and warriors of the heart in 2023.
(And to further initiate myself in the process.)
I intend also to offer my gifts as a healer, entheogenic guide, wisdom counselor, psycho-spiritual coach, writer, rapper, and artist.
My offerings are beginning to take shape. Though subject to change, here is my current sense of (most of) my core offerings this year:
Lion Heart: A 9-month warrior initiation & leadership training for 11 courageous men ready to live a real life in service to God. Includes monthly 1:1 sessions, weekly group sessions, structured comprehensive ‘New Earth Mastery & Leadership’ curriculum, private community, and an in-person 1:1 or group initiation / retreat. 11 spaces available. Begins ~3/1/23.
God-Surrendered Leadership: A 6-month or 12-month 1:1 mentorship journey & warrior initiation for leaders ready to give their lives over to Love. Includes weekly 1:1 sessions, private 1:1 chat, structured comprehensive ‘New Earth Mastery & Leadership’ curriculum, and an in-person 1:1 private retreat. ~1-2 spaces available.
Naked Honesty: A 3-month, 6-month, or 12-month 1:1 or 1:2 healing & psycho-spiritual coaching journey for individuals or couples. Ideal for those working through relationship healing, psychedelic integration, addiction healing, mid-life or existential crises, or those seeking to return to wholeness, feel self-love, find their calling, and be what they truly are. Includes weekly 1:1 or 1:2 sessions and private 1:1 or 1:2 chat. ~2 spaces available.
~2 Entheogenic Retreats / Initiations: Likely a psilocybin retreat in the Netherlands in ~July and an ayahuasca & Bufo retreat in Mexico in ~December — likely ~5-10 spaces available for guests per retreat.
1:1 Entheogenic Immersions: I am available for 1:1 entheogenic work, in which I design a multi-day immersion + preparation & integration journey for a specific individual. Available medicines likely include Bufo (5-MeO-DMT) and psilocybin, among others. Depending on the medicine, these can take place in various countries in Europe & North America.
Healing & Transformational Facilitation Services: I am available for hire for retreat or workshop facilitation. On retreats I specialize in facilitating sound healing & breathwork journeys, heart-opening meditations, inner-child work, men’s circles, entheogenic ceremonies, non-dual meditations, satsangs, voice activations, hugging meditations, laughter meditations, ecstatic dances, warrior activations, relationship workshops, leadership trainings, and classes on all aspects of holistic life mastery in this age of transition from Old to New Earth.
Writing, Rapping, Beatmaking, & AI Art Services: I am available for hire as a writer, rapper, beatmaker, and AI artist. This means that if a heart-aligned opportunity appears, I can create things like essays, poems, fiction, rap verses, beats, live raps at your venue, album art, other visual art, and so forth, for an appropriate fee. If you have a special creation that you feel would be blessed by my presence, please reach out.
If you already know you feel a spark of inspiration to work with me in 2023, please take ~2-3 minutes to register your interest via this simple form. I will follow up with more information for you.
Blessings & Love,
Jordan
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